Jesus said, "If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away,
will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off?
And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about
the ninety-nine that did not wander off.
In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost."
~ Mathew 18:12-14
will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off?
And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about
the ninety-nine that did not wander off.
In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost."
~ Mathew 18:12-14
As the days on earth passed, for what modernists would call: "Homo Sapiens," the House entities whom had fallen and had merged deeply with their fleshy beasts of choice, were finding themselves to have an instinctual response to procreation. One, in which, compulsions and attractions began to rule their every emotion. And when in coitus, a profound sensation could be experienced that was as much a narcotic as it was explosive and intense. With no need to elaborate further, suffice it to say that the House entities had sexual relations through those animal instincts so they could biologically create bodies for their diaphanous soul forms. Further, this was not seen as a sin, but as an overall improvement for the Homo Sapiens intelligence and evolution.
So it would seem, that reality's fourth plane [of intuition] has its own cosmic link to the substantial animus of instinctual desires. Much like the lower physical body is moored to the higher spiritual soul via its "silver chord", the instinctive animal body is secured to the higher intuitional soul by means of its own "tarnished bronze chord." In either case, this "umbilicus" attaching the lower to the higher must always, eventually, be detached. Until such a time as when this "befouled" ligature is severed, compulsions and behaviors will continue to percolate up from below with their own obstinance in every creature they are yoked to. It is the obligation of each divine self to control the flow of pranic substances yielded by such metaphysical transactions. The same divine self is who chooses what to do with all residues and distillations prior to the severing of his chord. The wise soul would tarry not on these concerns however, for they would comprehend that a resulting death of the lower and less developed (i.e.: the profane and organic) is but an eternal necessity in evolution's mandatory movements and constant redistribution of materials.
Had the transient souls made certain choices over others, the ideal outcome would have impacted their astral qualities and intellect with better intuitional clarity. Instead, immediate gratification and individuality had taken precedence and egos were strengthened. If such amalgamations of intuition and instinct had taken a different trajectory, perhaps the man creatures of this ancestry would have been worthy of relocation to their own place, or given an alternative "special arrangement" from within Heaven. Yet, for the ecumenical materialists and mentalists of future earthly generations, either possibility would be only an argument never to be resolved. Self important decissionists and Biblical interpretators disagreeing over whether the flesh would be made eternal, or even, if Heaven would materialize upon the earth have yet to witness the phenomenalization of kairotic time on such matters. However so, and regardless the "problematic" temporal natures of their organisms, such issues were not to be considered in the minds of these entities in the early days of the fall.
Biology was merely one aspect of the twain symbiosis. It was an immediate means to a pressing end; the clear objective for a temporal "box" of life. True, it created the animal body, but atom fragmenting was now also necessary for the creation of a "continuing" living soul. Each fragment is the seat of enlightenment and wisdom for each beast. In adding this atom (it only takes a "fragment", "chip", or a "fraction") to the mortal man, a sudden locking of the two - man and soul - manifests. The self sustaining animation once controlled by biology had now been all but completely overtaken by the more powerful and energetically developed spirit. Biology merely duplicated two organism's "blueprints". But, from this point on, the hominids took a significant leap in evolution, and the atom spirit took over the definitions of character and personality of each biological organism being born. In other words; the soul had become "accountable" for every act, thought, deed or intention.
Although the earth ages went on and the Lemurians spread their seed prolifically, an "overlapping" age in Creation brought to earth another batch of heavenly entities. These were the various Lords who had arrived with a mission - they were to "rearrange" the Lemurians ways of thinking - by force if necessary - in order to get them away from the temporal kingdom they were establishing for themselves on earth. The earth kingdom was quickly becoming one of perversion and selfish interests, and these Lords were compelled to intervene on Lord Kundie's behalf and of the Godhead's desire to keep all "descendants" close at hand - if not geographically; at least, morally. Though the objective remained as the same, the method was contestable in Heaven. And for having no consensus amongst themselves, each Lord intended to handle the matter with their own approach.
Arrival of the Lords was met with friendship and joy. A select few were even recognized and accepted as being from some of these fallen entities' own Houses, in what to them, was now an ancient Heaven. Perceived as "kindred souls", the Lemurians eagerly showed them around and shared with them what they had learned in their earth plane experiences. At first, the Lords took it all in, keeping to themselves the many things that they had seen as abominations. It was a tactical calculation; an attempt to exploit the House entities' trust and devotions. However so, it would be a gambit with diabolical intent - and one in which future generations of "militant evangelical crusaders" would correspondingly, also make bed partners with.
The Lords even showed "the House Entities" the perfect place to build a portal back to heaven on the high slopes of Mount Shasta, in the hope that many would voluntarily return with penitence in their hearts. Yet, even though the Lords could show them what to do, the Lemurian "representatives" had to do the job of constructing the portal themselves, because they were now "blended entities of the earth plane, and their earth plane nature had to be joined with their spiritual energy to create the physical portal from these lands. It could be functional in no other way, and the special "occult" connections that Quantana and Lilith retained with Heaven were called to task.
The endeavor was to manifest through both conscious and subconscious efforts, and in the process, the mortal beings Adam and Eve were placed into a deep sleep, so that Quantana and Lilith could be freed and come forth with pure spirit energy for completion of the task. Yet, to conjure forth these two entities would be similar in quality as separating a soul from its body before its time, an effort in itself, with serious metaphysical connotations.
As Adam and Eve remained unconscious, standing upright, their soul energies manifested upon the eastern slope of the mountain and before a huge bolder that could capture the early morning sun light. It would be viewed as a conscious act of "possession" by and through the House entities though, for they had to enter into the beings in a commanding way to focus supernatural powers - powers that any one of them alone did not sufficiently possess. The Lords looked upon the act with satisfaction, as if the House entities were falling under the same pretenses of manipulation and desirous transformation as they.
Some of these Lords even had a more intimate investment than others in the initiative. Takama had come from Lord Kundie's 75th galaxy, and he was also from the Seventh House of this Heaven. When Kundie created this House, it's purpose was for "Alignment". Lord Vutu was from the 69th galaxy. Yet, he was also from the Second House, known as Roton, whose association was to "Spiritual Knowledge". Lord Danqui, from the 54th galaxy, had connections to Kundie's Fifth House, named Swela. This House was known for its relationship to the purposes of "Meditation". Lord Viskey being from the 39th galaxy was also associated to Kundie's Fourth House - the House of Noble, renowned throughout Heaven for its connection to "Prayer".
In the ceremony Lord Takama had to invoke the power of Bishamon, the House Buddha associated with Alignment, while Lord Vutu invoked the House power of Spiritual Knowledge through his Buddha, Siede. All the while, Lord Danqui continued invocations to the Buddha, Ebisu, for orchestrating the power of Meditative intent. Lord Viskey, through his own essential supplications, invoked the "Noble" power of Quahad, his House Buddha, so as to round out the unitary effect. And so it was obvious to all entities here, plying their abilities in such power manipulations, that their efforts and objectives were just as "noble" as were Lord Viskey's. The results were excellent, and the objective was met.
In borrowing the now "familiar" shape of their hosts, both Quantana and Lilith, and the numerous House entities also possessing Adam and Eve for the duration of the ritual, extended the physical palms of their opposing hands towards the rock surface. Although the movements were guided by the House entities, it was the invocations of the Lords that focused the supernatural power beginning to unfold. As the invocations were pronounced and the hands of Adam and Eve moved towards the boulder's surface, an electrical force was generated in the ethers between Heaven and Earth. When the hands of flesh touched the stone, fragments of the rock were seen to explosively scatter away from beneath their palms. Before witnesses and Watchers alike, a whirlwind of energy was beheld that encircled the rock and the souls before it.
When the invocations were complete, and the pair were brought away from the face of the boulder, the impression of their hands remained. In each indentation, a unique symbol was discovered, as if they were "chiseled" into the stone. Within Quantana's palm print there rested a symbol, your modern anthropologists would identify as the "All Seeing Eye." This was the symbol for "Godlike Knowledge," or, if you prefer; "Divine Essence". Within Lilith's palm print, the symbol for what in later earth history would be identified as a form of the swastika. This particular version represented the four rivers of life, or eternity.
In the aftermath of the ritual, Lohanna; Mother Queen, stepped into the portal vortex, partially to prove its benignant nature, and partially to display its usefulness. But upon entry into the whirlwind, she was in awed by the serene voice of Mau himself who spoke only to her, and with great sorrow pronounced his regrets for having her cast forth into the physical dimensions. His remorse was profound and it made good on his part, the penitence of his earlier act. And for restitution, Mau had beckoned her back into the lofty realms of Heaven. It was an invitation, to which, "Mother Queen" accepted with immediacy.
Over the duration of her exile, Lohanna had made certain changes within herself as an earth bound entity, and the earnestness of such changes are always of personal note and intimate comprehension. Most are not always revealed to the masses, and in Lohanna's case, this was no different. She had given up on believing in self inflicted pain and the delusion of deserving it. She had already made peace with her own limitations, and in showing compassion for her children's safety and well being, the merit of her true benevolence had emerged. These were the obvious reasons for her ascension. There were of course, other concessions she had made, but as these were unique only unto Lohanna, the mentioning of them to others remaining stranded in the physical of their own accord is prohibited. Once again, the Hall of Akashic Records is invoked for this instance. Every soul has its own path to walk, and to presume this path for any one of them is a forbidden act and not only an invasion upon one's emotional state and sense of well being, but an affront upon free will as well. These were points, quickly forgotten by the Lords whom had merged with the physical realm at this time.
To the witnesses, however, this was a miraculous event. To see the light of Lohanna drift away and disperse when she silently consented to return to Heaven gave many of these fallen, a new found sense of hope and possibility for salvation. What was less revealing at this time, was that the rest of the entities of the earth plane had now to prove their own worth before returning to Heaven.
Externally, the portal appeared as functional, and the Lords were satisfied with its role between two worlds. Though a sprinkling of entities could now find a way through via contributions to their own salvation, the larger number were confounded in their own inability to do so. It was over these inabilities that the Lords finally launched their assaults upon humanity, and the berating would escalate over time through generations of the earthbound who began to cling to passion for their own morals and pretenses; indeed, for the very longevity that each soul believed they deserved. It was longevity that escalated the interest in, and need for, confrontation. Combat would usually mark the farthest extent that each expression was enabled to accumulate the sum value of its current life acquisitions. How disputable would it be then, that for all things we hold with conviction, must also be worth the battles in which we would die for over them?
But whether the mortal dies in warring battles or not, each soul is a warrior unto its own ego, and again, until the battles are resolved without delusion, the earthbound soul returns to own his karma for yet another expression. Sadly, when the Galaxy Lords decided to war against the House Entities, a second battle had begun as well. It was a battle against karmic laws and accountability.
Passions are far reaching, for even after physical death, a karmic attachment remains and awaits an entity's rebirth. They have to be taken up repeatedly, until internally manipulated for purification and disbursal by the original soul whom has failed to live by their divine lessons or has generated even more discontent within. Why the endeavor is rarely realized by the "reborn of the earth" rests in the secrets of "Lucid Actualization", "Tangled Hierarchies", and products retained within kairotic time. I can only add, that amongst all expressions and experiences via mortal standards of perception, an intimate significance will be present for each being that persists until the kama-rupa/animal-soul of their individuality is relinquished once and for all. This is an inescapable environment to the extent that one's presence of mind must finally gain the ability to place itself into a higher order of perception for it's own benefit.
Over the ages, the Lemurian and Atlantean hostilities increased. In direct proportion, effort given to transcendence and salvation diminished. The boulder and portal to Heaven became neglected. Concealed in the annals of time, Adam and Eve had eaten from the tree of knowledge. The repercussions were twofold from this event, for now that "good" and "evil" were seen to be blatantly labeled as such, even the poorest of choices were willful ones. Not only were Adam and Eve cast out from the Garden of Eden, the portal to Heaven was also cleft in half and rendered useless as a gateway from then onward. The Sephiroth of highest authority proclaimed that there would no longer be an "easy avenue" for deliverance from evil. Ignorance would no longer be an excuse. If a soul were intelligent enough to proclaim his own ignorance, then, so too, would he have intelligence enough for aspiring towards a new enlightenment.
Thus, brings to conclusion the history of your spiritual ancestry, and perhaps, to the long season of neglected wisdom in the fall from Heaven, as well. My commentary here (as Talo), now ends, and it would be wise to pick it up again in your meditations with Lord Viskey. My hope is that within the chambers of your soul, you may realize your self as the prodigal son on its ultimate journey of return. You exist as a complete atomic entity with character and strength, yet you also remain as the product of your Overlord's preordained integrity. Meditate well, on the evolution of your soul, for it is as inescapable as the Absolute Consciousness from whence it came. When balance is achieved, your absorption into the greater Divinity will be the result. There are only so many life times available for this endeavor and one can "fall" for only "so long" before a bottom is reached.
So it would seem, that reality's fourth plane [of intuition] has its own cosmic link to the substantial animus of instinctual desires. Much like the lower physical body is moored to the higher spiritual soul via its "silver chord", the instinctive animal body is secured to the higher intuitional soul by means of its own "tarnished bronze chord." In either case, this "umbilicus" attaching the lower to the higher must always, eventually, be detached. Until such a time as when this "befouled" ligature is severed, compulsions and behaviors will continue to percolate up from below with their own obstinance in every creature they are yoked to. It is the obligation of each divine self to control the flow of pranic substances yielded by such metaphysical transactions. The same divine self is who chooses what to do with all residues and distillations prior to the severing of his chord. The wise soul would tarry not on these concerns however, for they would comprehend that a resulting death of the lower and less developed (i.e.: the profane and organic) is but an eternal necessity in evolution's mandatory movements and constant redistribution of materials.
Had the transient souls made certain choices over others, the ideal outcome would have impacted their astral qualities and intellect with better intuitional clarity. Instead, immediate gratification and individuality had taken precedence and egos were strengthened. If such amalgamations of intuition and instinct had taken a different trajectory, perhaps the man creatures of this ancestry would have been worthy of relocation to their own place, or given an alternative "special arrangement" from within Heaven. Yet, for the ecumenical materialists and mentalists of future earthly generations, either possibility would be only an argument never to be resolved. Self important decissionists and Biblical interpretators disagreeing over whether the flesh would be made eternal, or even, if Heaven would materialize upon the earth have yet to witness the phenomenalization of kairotic time on such matters. However so, and regardless the "problematic" temporal natures of their organisms, such issues were not to be considered in the minds of these entities in the early days of the fall.
Biology was merely one aspect of the twain symbiosis. It was an immediate means to a pressing end; the clear objective for a temporal "box" of life. True, it created the animal body, but atom fragmenting was now also necessary for the creation of a "continuing" living soul. Each fragment is the seat of enlightenment and wisdom for each beast. In adding this atom (it only takes a "fragment", "chip", or a "fraction") to the mortal man, a sudden locking of the two - man and soul - manifests. The self sustaining animation once controlled by biology had now been all but completely overtaken by the more powerful and energetically developed spirit. Biology merely duplicated two organism's "blueprints". But, from this point on, the hominids took a significant leap in evolution, and the atom spirit took over the definitions of character and personality of each biological organism being born. In other words; the soul had become "accountable" for every act, thought, deed or intention.
Although the earth ages went on and the Lemurians spread their seed prolifically, an "overlapping" age in Creation brought to earth another batch of heavenly entities. These were the various Lords who had arrived with a mission - they were to "rearrange" the Lemurians ways of thinking - by force if necessary - in order to get them away from the temporal kingdom they were establishing for themselves on earth. The earth kingdom was quickly becoming one of perversion and selfish interests, and these Lords were compelled to intervene on Lord Kundie's behalf and of the Godhead's desire to keep all "descendants" close at hand - if not geographically; at least, morally. Though the objective remained as the same, the method was contestable in Heaven. And for having no consensus amongst themselves, each Lord intended to handle the matter with their own approach.
Arrival of the Lords was met with friendship and joy. A select few were even recognized and accepted as being from some of these fallen entities' own Houses, in what to them, was now an ancient Heaven. Perceived as "kindred souls", the Lemurians eagerly showed them around and shared with them what they had learned in their earth plane experiences. At first, the Lords took it all in, keeping to themselves the many things that they had seen as abominations. It was a tactical calculation; an attempt to exploit the House entities' trust and devotions. However so, it would be a gambit with diabolical intent - and one in which future generations of "militant evangelical crusaders" would correspondingly, also make bed partners with.
The Lords even showed "the House Entities" the perfect place to build a portal back to heaven on the high slopes of Mount Shasta, in the hope that many would voluntarily return with penitence in their hearts. Yet, even though the Lords could show them what to do, the Lemurian "representatives" had to do the job of constructing the portal themselves, because they were now "blended entities of the earth plane, and their earth plane nature had to be joined with their spiritual energy to create the physical portal from these lands. It could be functional in no other way, and the special "occult" connections that Quantana and Lilith retained with Heaven were called to task.
The endeavor was to manifest through both conscious and subconscious efforts, and in the process, the mortal beings Adam and Eve were placed into a deep sleep, so that Quantana and Lilith could be freed and come forth with pure spirit energy for completion of the task. Yet, to conjure forth these two entities would be similar in quality as separating a soul from its body before its time, an effort in itself, with serious metaphysical connotations.
As Adam and Eve remained unconscious, standing upright, their soul energies manifested upon the eastern slope of the mountain and before a huge bolder that could capture the early morning sun light. It would be viewed as a conscious act of "possession" by and through the House entities though, for they had to enter into the beings in a commanding way to focus supernatural powers - powers that any one of them alone did not sufficiently possess. The Lords looked upon the act with satisfaction, as if the House entities were falling under the same pretenses of manipulation and desirous transformation as they.
Some of these Lords even had a more intimate investment than others in the initiative. Takama had come from Lord Kundie's 75th galaxy, and he was also from the Seventh House of this Heaven. When Kundie created this House, it's purpose was for "Alignment". Lord Vutu was from the 69th galaxy. Yet, he was also from the Second House, known as Roton, whose association was to "Spiritual Knowledge". Lord Danqui, from the 54th galaxy, had connections to Kundie's Fifth House, named Swela. This House was known for its relationship to the purposes of "Meditation". Lord Viskey being from the 39th galaxy was also associated to Kundie's Fourth House - the House of Noble, renowned throughout Heaven for its connection to "Prayer".
In the ceremony Lord Takama had to invoke the power of Bishamon, the House Buddha associated with Alignment, while Lord Vutu invoked the House power of Spiritual Knowledge through his Buddha, Siede. All the while, Lord Danqui continued invocations to the Buddha, Ebisu, for orchestrating the power of Meditative intent. Lord Viskey, through his own essential supplications, invoked the "Noble" power of Quahad, his House Buddha, so as to round out the unitary effect. And so it was obvious to all entities here, plying their abilities in such power manipulations, that their efforts and objectives were just as "noble" as were Lord Viskey's. The results were excellent, and the objective was met.
In borrowing the now "familiar" shape of their hosts, both Quantana and Lilith, and the numerous House entities also possessing Adam and Eve for the duration of the ritual, extended the physical palms of their opposing hands towards the rock surface. Although the movements were guided by the House entities, it was the invocations of the Lords that focused the supernatural power beginning to unfold. As the invocations were pronounced and the hands of Adam and Eve moved towards the boulder's surface, an electrical force was generated in the ethers between Heaven and Earth. When the hands of flesh touched the stone, fragments of the rock were seen to explosively scatter away from beneath their palms. Before witnesses and Watchers alike, a whirlwind of energy was beheld that encircled the rock and the souls before it.
When the invocations were complete, and the pair were brought away from the face of the boulder, the impression of their hands remained. In each indentation, a unique symbol was discovered, as if they were "chiseled" into the stone. Within Quantana's palm print there rested a symbol, your modern anthropologists would identify as the "All Seeing Eye." This was the symbol for "Godlike Knowledge," or, if you prefer; "Divine Essence". Within Lilith's palm print, the symbol for what in later earth history would be identified as a form of the swastika. This particular version represented the four rivers of life, or eternity.
In the aftermath of the ritual, Lohanna; Mother Queen, stepped into the portal vortex, partially to prove its benignant nature, and partially to display its usefulness. But upon entry into the whirlwind, she was in awed by the serene voice of Mau himself who spoke only to her, and with great sorrow pronounced his regrets for having her cast forth into the physical dimensions. His remorse was profound and it made good on his part, the penitence of his earlier act. And for restitution, Mau had beckoned her back into the lofty realms of Heaven. It was an invitation, to which, "Mother Queen" accepted with immediacy.
Over the duration of her exile, Lohanna had made certain changes within herself as an earth bound entity, and the earnestness of such changes are always of personal note and intimate comprehension. Most are not always revealed to the masses, and in Lohanna's case, this was no different. She had given up on believing in self inflicted pain and the delusion of deserving it. She had already made peace with her own limitations, and in showing compassion for her children's safety and well being, the merit of her true benevolence had emerged. These were the obvious reasons for her ascension. There were of course, other concessions she had made, but as these were unique only unto Lohanna, the mentioning of them to others remaining stranded in the physical of their own accord is prohibited. Once again, the Hall of Akashic Records is invoked for this instance. Every soul has its own path to walk, and to presume this path for any one of them is a forbidden act and not only an invasion upon one's emotional state and sense of well being, but an affront upon free will as well. These were points, quickly forgotten by the Lords whom had merged with the physical realm at this time.
To the witnesses, however, this was a miraculous event. To see the light of Lohanna drift away and disperse when she silently consented to return to Heaven gave many of these fallen, a new found sense of hope and possibility for salvation. What was less revealing at this time, was that the rest of the entities of the earth plane had now to prove their own worth before returning to Heaven.
Externally, the portal appeared as functional, and the Lords were satisfied with its role between two worlds. Though a sprinkling of entities could now find a way through via contributions to their own salvation, the larger number were confounded in their own inability to do so. It was over these inabilities that the Lords finally launched their assaults upon humanity, and the berating would escalate over time through generations of the earthbound who began to cling to passion for their own morals and pretenses; indeed, for the very longevity that each soul believed they deserved. It was longevity that escalated the interest in, and need for, confrontation. Combat would usually mark the farthest extent that each expression was enabled to accumulate the sum value of its current life acquisitions. How disputable would it be then, that for all things we hold with conviction, must also be worth the battles in which we would die for over them?
But whether the mortal dies in warring battles or not, each soul is a warrior unto its own ego, and again, until the battles are resolved without delusion, the earthbound soul returns to own his karma for yet another expression. Sadly, when the Galaxy Lords decided to war against the House Entities, a second battle had begun as well. It was a battle against karmic laws and accountability.
Passions are far reaching, for even after physical death, a karmic attachment remains and awaits an entity's rebirth. They have to be taken up repeatedly, until internally manipulated for purification and disbursal by the original soul whom has failed to live by their divine lessons or has generated even more discontent within. Why the endeavor is rarely realized by the "reborn of the earth" rests in the secrets of "Lucid Actualization", "Tangled Hierarchies", and products retained within kairotic time. I can only add, that amongst all expressions and experiences via mortal standards of perception, an intimate significance will be present for each being that persists until the kama-rupa/animal-soul of their individuality is relinquished once and for all. This is an inescapable environment to the extent that one's presence of mind must finally gain the ability to place itself into a higher order of perception for it's own benefit.
Over the ages, the Lemurian and Atlantean hostilities increased. In direct proportion, effort given to transcendence and salvation diminished. The boulder and portal to Heaven became neglected. Concealed in the annals of time, Adam and Eve had eaten from the tree of knowledge. The repercussions were twofold from this event, for now that "good" and "evil" were seen to be blatantly labeled as such, even the poorest of choices were willful ones. Not only were Adam and Eve cast out from the Garden of Eden, the portal to Heaven was also cleft in half and rendered useless as a gateway from then onward. The Sephiroth of highest authority proclaimed that there would no longer be an "easy avenue" for deliverance from evil. Ignorance would no longer be an excuse. If a soul were intelligent enough to proclaim his own ignorance, then, so too, would he have intelligence enough for aspiring towards a new enlightenment.
Thus, brings to conclusion the history of your spiritual ancestry, and perhaps, to the long season of neglected wisdom in the fall from Heaven, as well. My commentary here (as Talo), now ends, and it would be wise to pick it up again in your meditations with Lord Viskey. My hope is that within the chambers of your soul, you may realize your self as the prodigal son on its ultimate journey of return. You exist as a complete atomic entity with character and strength, yet you also remain as the product of your Overlord's preordained integrity. Meditate well, on the evolution of your soul, for it is as inescapable as the Absolute Consciousness from whence it came. When balance is achieved, your absorption into the greater Divinity will be the result. There are only so many life times available for this endeavor and one can "fall" for only "so long" before a bottom is reached.